kitten loves to be tied, she loves to be paddled, her ass burning red and her body writhing in ecstasy as she takes her pleasure from Masters hand but that does not mean she does not enjoy being cuddled, held in His arms and soothed when she is hurting emotionally, just because a slave loves the pain side doesn’t mean that ALL pain is good, the emotional pain is the one that hurts the most.

in the past kitten has got things wrong, wrong in the fact when she was hurting inside she used to try to justify that pain by needing to be hurt on the outside, needing to be hurt physically as well as mentally, but was always left feeling hollow and empty, the pain did not relieve the hurt inside, and at times kitten pushed  and pushed to try to make it hurt more, needing that to try to feel better about herself

Kittens Master does not believe in punishments, well physical punishments and that confused kitten for so long, having been used to that for so long when it is not there, kitten could not understand, did it mean kitten was not worth punishing, was she so much of a screw up that she was not worth bothering with ? Why did He not punish her and make her see the errors of what had happened? When kitten was hurting because she knew she had done wrong why did He not hurt her more ? why did He not punish her with the belt or the paddle ?

Master is a smart cookie, He knew that the belt was a temporary punishment, the pain would be short lived and would actually not do any good to kitten, yes He did punish her, by not punishing her, !  There is nothing like a slave who knows she has screwed up and the misery she feels by being a disappointment is overwhelming, that is the worst punishment ever but having learnt a lesson that way it is one that is rarely repeated, and when the lesson is learnt then an arm around you, a snuggle on the floor by His feet, a kind word, a hand stroking your hair, these are all indications that kitten is fine and she is not in trouble,

In the past a belt, a paddle, a whip, these were used but they didn’t work and the pain kitten felt on the outside did not stop the pain on the inside but now  pain is once more just for pleasure and not for relief of emotions causing her trouble  inside, but Masters way, although so very different, means kitten is not seeking to justify the hurt all the time, pain is once more just for pleasure and not for relief of emotions causing her trouble

Kitten is owned by a poly Master, He owns others and that is great by kitten. Kitten is a pain slut and her sister isn’t, so what does that mean for Master? Well it means all His desires are catered for, as if He wants the softer side of BDSM then He has a slave for that and if He wants the more hard core side then He has that as well, but kitten knows that He will not just use her for the Hard stuff, and He will not just use kittens sister for the soft stuff, a Master likes to have variety and by using kitten soft then He will be teaching her and allowing her to grow, allowing her to experience the other side of BDSM.

A Master has many sides to Him, and those sides form the complete picture, A Master should not be one dimensional, He is Strong, caring loving ( even if He doesn’t always show that side it is always there in the things He does for His slaves ) He is fair and just, He does not judge but listens and advises, He should be someone to turn to when things are not right and that is just some of what a Master is or should be, but a Master is also a sexual person, He loves to have variety, He likes the aspects that this life allows Him and that is apparent when He is a poly Master.

Kitten sees too many stuck in a rut in the vanilla life, lights off wham bam thank you ma am sex is all they wish but a BDSM Dom/Master ,, well no that not for them.

In BDSM there are many things that some sisters adore and some sister abhor, but that is what makes this life unique, the fact that all involved are pleasured and pleased, that all are given the chance to be themselves, to let their inhibitions go and finally be true to what they desire.

If a sister does not like pain that does not mean she is adverse to inflicting it on another, and while kitten has a feeling that her sister would not enjoy that kitten also knows there are other slaves that while they cannot take it love to give it, and if that is a Masters wish to see His slaves playing together in that way then He is happy, the slaves are happy and the pleasure received by all is tremendous.

A Master who wishes to see a slave used by another slave is not rare in this life, it is something most men desire, seeing two women together is a great turn on for them and in that way a Master is just living most men’s dreams, there is no feeling like a Master taking one slave while her face is buried in a dripping pussy!

BDSM is a life most fantasize about, its about freedom to be who and what you really ar, We are people, we have the same desires and needs as most, but the difference is, we accept them, embrace them and live them

smiling,, more kitten thoughs,

When many think about this style of life they see the bad and not the good, too many imagine a sub/slave being held against their will,, bound and helpless and with no where to go if things go wrong, and that is a false image, talk shows portray Doms/Masters as abusers, they see a strong Man and automatically thing Yeap He is an abuser because He tells His sub/slave what to do and is the relationship is one of TPE then that extends to where they go, who they see, what they wear, in fact in every part of the slaves life the Master has control and if the slave has family, friends or work mates who are not familiar with their life the cry of He is an abuser  Leave Him , Walk away , is heard ringing out.

Kitten knows there are abusers in this life style, unfortunately she has experienced it first hand but they are not the normal, they are the exception and those true to BDSM and D/s and M/s do not tolerate them within their circles so many are out cast and left to make their own way, many but not all, as some to the outside world are normal and kind, caring and compassionate towards their property, its only when the doors are shut that things change.

Sometimes a sub/slave doesn’t know its abuse, stupid kitten knows but its true, if the treatment you are receiving has happened over a long period, slowly changing, subtle things becoming an everyday event then you know no other way, the mind tends to forget other things and just accepts what is now and not what was then. 

Abuse takes on many forms, physical, well that’s something a pain slut doesn’t realise for a long time as pain to her is a normal thing and one that she craves but even then the punishments can take on harsher results and all of a sudden what you once craved you start to fear, and that is something that can break and destroy a person, taking what is an essential part of them and making them fear it.  The abuse can be mental, tell someone often enough they are fat stupid, thick, ugly, worthless etc and they will believe it, and their belief in themselves will plummet, and in this way the Dom/Master gains greater control as who else would want a sub/slave who was all those things ? No one that’s who, regardless if she is actually what is being said the belief is installed in her that she is worthless and stupid ignorant etc.

So what do you do if you see another sister in that situation? (And kitten uses sister as we are all sisters in one form or another when we are in this life)Well if you are owned the go to your Dom/Master, explain to Him what your fears are, what you know is happening, don’t exaggerate, don’t fabricate just hard facts as otherwise it will not be believed, talk to the sister speak to her, watch what is happening but failing that  then all you can do is be there for her when things get too bad support her and love her, and let her know she has a friend in you, one who will love her regardless of her choices.

The abusers in this life do exist but no more than in a vanilla life, the difference is its a smaller community so they are more obvious and that is what people see when they look from the out side into this life, they never see the pleasure, the joy the happiness that we are feeling and that is their loss

  Lol the ramblings of a kitten mind is scary really 

The room was quiet, the only sound was that of her breathing, deep even breaths the occasional sigh as she turned in the bed; she was alone, sleeping soundly when He visited.
The curtains flapped at the window, silently allowing Him entrance as He sat on the sill watching her, the smile playing across His face as He saw her turning restlessly in the bed, His smile becoming wider as she moaned in her sleep, she knew even in sleep He was close, her body so attuned to Him that His presence was felt even in slumber,,, moving swiftly across the room,, His footsteps gliding on the carpet He stops at the foot of the bed, His hands moving under the covers and touching her , her calf in His hand as he gently parts her legs,, she moans more but her legs open for Him, running His fingers over her leg,, higher,, watching her squirm as they move to the V of her legs,, gently, briefly touching her sweet pussy He withdraws His hand,, her body wriggling on the bed, her own fingers move unbidden to her pussy,, her smile while she sleeps clear as her fingers move over her clit, running between her lips as she groans, her eyes flickering as she feels her body.
He moves up beside the bed, His hands once more touching her under the covers, this time a slight flick of His fingers to her hard nipples, a glancing touch that sends thrills through her, His smile wide as He hears her gasps,, He knows she wants to touch then even while sleeping, her free hand moving to them as she sighs, her fingers on her nipples as she turns in the bed,, laying on her side with her leg raised, her hands on her body as He watches,
Leaning over her He whispers, Cum for Me, Cum while I watch over you
Her fingers move over her clit,, stroking and touching, playing and pleasing as He watches,, never touching her,, ever talking to her but just being there is enough, she can sense Him with her as her fingers move,, she is trying to please Him still even while asleep she wants His pleasure, the covers move lower, her body on fire as she taunts her clit, the ache building as she feels her orgasm approaching, her legs tensing, her body stretching , as her fingers move on her body,, fingers going inside her as her legs open wider, moving on the bed, unable to keep still, even in sleep her body responds to Him, to the thought He wants her
Long loud moan as her body heaves,, her sweet pussy juices flowing as she cums, her back arching as she orgasms, her fingers still inside her,, hips lifting to the pleasure she feel,, her eyes open, searching desperately for Him, sure that it was Him that had done this to her,, the room is empty, the curtains billowing in the slight breeze,, no one is there the room is silent,,
Was it a dream? Was He never really there? Turning her head, she sees her paddle on the pillow beside her,, smiling softly she holds it, turning she closes her eyes a soft sigh as she knows He watches over her once more as she sleeps

>^..^<

In this lifestyle a lot is made of the punishment side of things,, smiling ,, kitten knows some punishments are worse than other, lol a paddle across the ass would not bother her but breaking or being made to not listen to her Bon Jovi would be devastating to her, smiling kitten knows that Mozart or Beethoven just not the same for her !

A punishment is usually given when a wrong is done, but and this is something kittens Master believes in deeply, not ALL wrongs are punishable, if the task a sub/slave had been given was done wrong, then a Master first needs to look at why ,, is the sub/slave incapable of doing the task ? Were the instructions not clear ? was there something that happened that prevented the task being done? All these things are factors in why a task migh not have been completed.

But what of rewards ? if there is a punishment for something done wrong or a grave mistake made, then it stands to follow that there should also be a reward as well for something done well . This reward system is one that not all Doms/Masters believe in though so no task should be undertaken with the thought of getting a reward in mind, this only leads to disappointement and eventually feelings of resentment, something kitten always tries to remember is a saying she heard,,,

“Do not be like servants who serve their masters expecting to receive a reward; be rather like servants who serve their master unconditionally, with no thought of reward.” – Antigonus of Sokho

A reward is anything, a kind word, a pat on the head, being pleasured by Your Master, indeed to some a reward would be the feel of the paddle !  And just as a given task is treated as a seperate thing then so should the rewards, it doesn’t always follow if the task is a hard or difficult one then the reward if any will be greater than that for a task which is simple, all tasks are important and should be treated with the mindset of it being something which your Dom/Master wishes you to do so you do it with a smile.

Just as the punishment should fit the ‘ crime’ and sub/slave then so should the reward, and by this kitten doesn’t mean the ‘size’ of the reward but the reward being tailored to that particular sub/slave. not all rewards mean the same to all concerned, If the punishment is to peak hourly with out being allowed to orgasm for a 24 hour period ( or longer ) then is the reward being allowed to cum ? If the punishment is not being allowed to speak is the reward the sound of your voice again? If the punishment is being ignored for a period of time, is the reward being noticed?

Kitten thinks subs/slaves need to remember the good as well as the bad. So much is talked of about punishment and if this life was all punishment then how many would really stay true to it ? The rewards are there, but it seems that not many actually notice them as they think they are a right, when a Master allows His sub/slave sexual release, that is a reward and not a right When a sub/slave is given freedom to go out,speak with friends, that is a reward not a right. The only true right we have are those given to us by our Doms/ Masters.

Smiling sorry just a kittens view once again

>^..^<

in this life a lot is said about trust, that the bond between a D/s and M/s is a strong one and one that needs to be present especially during a scene and if you are in a TPE relationship, the need to really believe that your Master will care for you always and only have your interests at heart helps to strengthen that trust, but have you ever had so much trust in another that you can close your eyes and open your mind totally to them ? Have you ever experience the absolute power they hold over you by just listening to their voice and letting them invade your mind?

To have an orgasm without touching yourself, to feel your body throbbing with desire when He speaks to you and tells you what He is going to do to you, how He is going to do it, where He is going to do it, it is an amazing feeling and one kitten has experienced twice before, and longs to experience again, It takes trust, faith, belief and desire to allow another into your head like that, in one way kitten guesses it must be like hypnotising someone and it can only be done if the Dom/Master is able to handle the responsibility that it can entail, but if done right, its a wonderful feeling

Laying on top of the bed clothes… my body naked .. ripe… eager.. I am waiting.. just laying there,.. not touching myself.. not moving… my eyes closed as I listen to the sweet hypnotic tones of Your voice

Feel My breathe, warm on your body, feel it caress your skin as I move over you, slide above you, not touching but you know I am there, you can feel My presense as I glide My body close to yours, never touching you, never even a glancing brush against you.

Feel My lips My sweet one, feel them brush yours as I lean my head to touch your luscious lips, feel them touch you, feel them taste you as I deepen My kiss, open your mouth for Me, let me taste your sweet nectar as My tongue teases you, let Me drink from your mouth My love, taking your breath as I deepen My kiss.
Can you feel Me? Can you feel My body over yours, can you feel the heat from Me engulfing you as I move above you? I want your cum , I want you to cum for Me, I want your juices to flow when I command, I want you to beg Me for release, beg Me to please you, beg Me to grant your deepest wish, and this I will have.

My body aching as I listen to You, hearing Your words, moving slightly on the bed I feel my pussy weeping for You, the desire in me so strong, the need to touch so great, my fingers unbidden move to my wet, throbbing pussy, a brief passing touch as I gasp aloud.

NO….. YOU WILL NOT TOUCH….. LISTEN TO ME…. LAY STLL AND SILENT MY ONE AND LISTEN ONLY TO MY VOICE….
Hand moving to my side as I sigh, knowing that to touch is forbidden, wriggling on the bed more as I try to find comfort, the ache in me so strong, the need so great,

Open your legs for Me, open them wide, let Me come between them , let Me touch you with My tongue, let Me lick you, let Me taste your essence, let Me kiss your sweet clit and nibble on it, let me take it in My mouth and suck on it, feel Me take you in My mouth, feel Me cover you with My warm wet mouth as My tongue teases your hard nub, moan for Me, let Me know you feel Me pleasing you, feel Me making your body want more.

My hips lifting as I hear Your voice, my pussy throbbing for You, Your touch running over me, my eyes closed tight as Your voice invades my head, Your thoughts mine, Your desires mine, Your touch on my body so real, so gentle, so firm, my gasp the only sound as I feel Your mouth closing on me.

Feel My fingers stroking you, feel Them touching you, feel Them invading you as I slide them deep in you, curling Them as I move Them, My fingers moving inside you, slowly at first, them faster, deeper, lift your hips for Me, open wide for Me, grind for Me, beg Me to give you what you want, what you need.

My hips moving up, my legs opening wider, my desire clear on my face as You whisper to me, your voice so clear and strong in my head, so close, so strong in my thoughts as You talk, my body responding to just Your words, Your power of suggestion. The bed dipping as You settle by my head, leaning over me, talking all the while as I writhe on the bed, Your voice hypnotic, Your suggestions clear, Your words opening my mind to Your suggestions, Your movements, not touching me but in my head You are, in my head I feel Your fingers moving in me, in my head I feel Your mouth on me, I feel You.

Feel My mouth close on your hard nipples, feel Me biting softly on them, feel Me suck on them, feel Me close tight on them as I pull them from your body, feel My mouth and my tongue running over them as My fingers bring you closer and closer to release, move your hips, lift for Me, push against My hand, take My fingers deeper inside you, take My mouth harder on you as you arch your back for Me, needing My touch, needing My body to give you pleasure.

My head spinning as Your words echo in my ears, my body a mass of nerve endings as I writhe on the bed, unable to stop myself as You talk so softly to me, whispers caressing me as You tell me to listen to You, only You, always You.. stretching my arms above my head.. my back arching as I feel Your fingers. Tongue, breath, body covering me.. Touching but not touching, but pleasing, always pleasing. My moans growing in my throat as I beg, needing release, wanting release, begging You for the ultimate release.

Feel My mouth kissing you, feel My weight pressing you to the bed, feel Me moving My fingers deeper, faster, feel your pussy throbbing on My hand, feel My thumb on your clit, rubbing it, teasing it, pleasing it as I bring you to orgasm, can you feel it, can you taste Me on your lips, do you want Me to let you cum for Me, only Me, always Me?

My head moving side to side on my pillow, my breathe coming in gasps as I squeeze my eyes tight shut, the stars behind my lips dancing in time to the throbbing, pulsing of my body, hips lifting and lowering, my body not mine, my body Yours as I feel my orgasm, ohhh god, my orgasm, single tear escaping as I try to hold it back, shaking as I feel the power of my orgasm build, not sure if I can stop it, not wanting to stop it, need to release it, opening my mouth I scream ‘ Oohhhhh god please Sir,, oohh please I beg You, please please please ‘

‘CUM FOR ME NOW ‘You command.. ‘GIVE IT TO ME….. NOWWWWWW’

Body going into spasms as I cum hard,, stars shooting behind my lids as I feel the power of my orgasm running through me. Taking my body… invading my senses as I buck on the bed,, juices flowing as I pulse, throb, ache. The power, the feeling, the naked desire clear as I move on the bed, hands balling into fists as I ride it out, letting it take me, control me, giving in to it as I feel my ears flow down my face. What seems like years pass, my body calms, my breating steadies as I finally open my eyes, turning my head I look at You, Your smile So Bright. So Strong. So Wonderful

Leaning close to me, Your lips brush against mine … ‘ Good Girl ‘ You whisper 

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