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kitten as many know has been in a few of the social sites on the internet, some better than others and that is why she is telling you all about a new site she has joined.
The site is for BDSM M/s and D/s relationships, you can post blogs, pictures,music, chat and so much more but the best part is it is for like minded people who when you look at the poll and read the posts and actually chat with them are on the whole REAL people and not just online players that you find in so many of the sites online.
The site is http://anownedlife.ning.com and it is a mine of information for newbies and more experienced people alike. Please check it out and look forward to seeing you in there, kitten is sure you will enjoy the site

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It seems that someone has decided to post things or rather comments on kitten, how she is full of hate and how she is not a slave because she is not subservient, humble, shows the proper respect for Master and does not ask Him when she wishes to wipe her ass after going to the toilet.

kitten knows that some people are opinionated, and that is fine, lol we all know that kitten can be as well but she has always answered any questions, with the words These are kittens thoughts and ideas, and indeed on her blog she writes her thoughts, her feeling, her doubts and fears and it is not for anyone else to add a comment and tell her she is wrong, especially without knowing kitten, without having spoken to her at all or indeed without having any idea what she is like either with Master or on her own.

While kitten likes to recieve comments that are constructive and add to the whole post, and give others  something to think about, attacking kitten is not the way to get your point across, so if you are a friend of kittens or a friend of someone else please have the courage of your words and leave a link where we can all see your words of ‘wisdom’ for ourselves, instead of attacking under the pretence of knowing what a Master is all about,  and yes if kitten has not shown you the ‘respect you think you deserve its because you are not kittens Master and it is only His opinion of kitten that matters

As with all things, there is not a one size fits all and what suits you may not suit another, you mention so many things in your comments, all of which you have no right unless you know kitten to judge, but as with so many people, passing judgement is what they do best, so please, get to know kitten before you condem her and say she is not a slave, she has a feeling you would be very surprised just how slave  ish she actually is, but thas the thing with Master, He likes then to have a brain as well

Kitten has a few questions, or comments really

If you live in a TPE M/s relationship and you are told by your Master NOT to do something, do you obey that ?

If you are a SLAVE in a relationship and you are banned from something, do you listen and respect your Masters wishes ?

If your Master asks you something, something that you know you should not have done/be doing, do you tell the truth or LIE ?

Do you keep secrets from your Master, hoping He will not find out ?

All too often kitten is finding that some people have a problem with the TPE part of a M/s relationship, when a Master tells a slave not to do something then they should not do it, and then they stupidly make a comment about it and then try to lie their way out of it. Unfortunately their lies are all to often believed but that will change soon as in person it is harder to lie and be believed.

In kittens mind it is really simple, if a slave cannot follow orders from her Master then she is not really a slave, she is trying to push the relationship onto her terms, kitten is not talking about the ‘order’ made while teasing and joking but the orders made when she has pissed Him off and made Him mad, when she has been told not to do something and she thinks she is above His orders.

Kitten is no ones fool and she knows that their are expectations on her regarding her and others but to be honest, kitten is not that keen on dealing with people who cannot be trusted and so far, all indications point at that

Time is moving, kitten is getting closer and closer to the time she can be with Master, under two weeks now, wow things certainly appear to be flying by, lol in 8 months it will be Christmas again !!

This is the time that kitten has been dreading, not the moving but the thoughts and actions of others. Kitten does not really understand some people and their mentality, all she seems to be getting all day long, on the phone, on instant messenger and from people in r/t is that she is making a mistake and that she will not be wanted, well all kitten can say to them is IF she is making a mistake then it is hers to make, but she honestly doesn’t believe it is a mistake, not for her at least.

Kitten is usually quiet, she is not one to push herself to the fore front and demand more time from Master, moan about wanting to be played with or wanting to have some quality time with Him, kitten knows that Master will be with her when HE wants to be and all that moaning and whining will do is make Him not want to spend time with her at all, something kitten thinks people don’t realise, and when they see kitten content to not speak then they think its because she doesn’t value the time with Him, they think that in order to be a sub or slave they need interaction and conversation at all times, well for them that might be true but kitten is mainly content within herself, oohh don’t get her wrong, there are times she needs Him but unless she tells Him those times He will never know.

Kitten needs Him at the moment, she has had company everyday of the week so far, and to be honest her head is splitting and she is not sure anymore if she is sitting down or standing up, they have her so confused and twisted she is not even sure of her name at times , unless you count the names they call her, then guess she is many things. Kitten has needs as well, she works all day and long hours at that so when she is home she loves to chat, the time difference is a killer and with company as well it makes things worse, but kitten knows Master has others and even if they are on the same time zone as Him it is His choice who He interacts with and when, kitten could speak up and say she would like to talk please but that is not her way, so it is kittens fault really.

Kitten just hopes the next two weeks go fast, she knows that actually being with Master is not going to be a bed of roses, there will be ‘teething’ problems and no doubt some grief from others who will not like kitten being there, but at least Master will be there for those problems, its these ones that kitten is dealing with alone that are making her head spin and hurt, but as kittens mother used to say, “ If they are picking on you they are leaving someone else alone so accept it and deal with it “

Well another day crossed off the list, time is moving and kitten is thinking, hhhmm not sure is that is good or bad to be honest.

Kitten has always managed to hold herself ‘aloof’ she very rarely lets people get close enough to really affect her, well that is all breaking down, Master has got to her, and holding herself back and keeping a distance is becoming harder and harder, and that scares kitten a lot.

Kitten has been reading some of her old post, she sees herself being soft and soppy, and that is not kitten, she is tough, strong, she needs no one and nothing from others, yet He manages to get to her in stupid ways, either things said or things done and to be honest kitten is fighting that, she cannot depend on anyone, that makes her needy, she needs to rely on herself, let no one in, stay aloof, stay safe.

How can one person do this to another ? How can He get to her when she resists at all turns ? He says things about hugs and kisses, all things kitten sucks at, they are things kitten doesn’t know how to do well, so she doesn’t do them, end of story.

In being with Master kitten has faced a LOT of others who think that she should not be, and she has lost a few ‘friends’ along the way, last night another one decided to put their opinions across, have they spoken to others ? Don’t really know, all kitten knows is that they were a very good friend from a friends site that she used to go on, now she doesn’t go there anymore and they want her to, they want to get her to go back to online with others, to chat and laugh, to be a part of the fun group again,

Kitten is thinking too hard, she knows that no matter what she is trying to do her thoughts and feelings keep pushing themselves forward, hell kitten either wants to be with Master NOW so He can sort things for her or she wants to run fast, and at the moment it is a tightly run race as to what wins. The fact that she wants Master to help sort things out is something she doesn’t like, always before she could sort things herself, close them away and shut a bit more of herself away, that is getting harder to do as each day goes by and kitten can’t deal with that, not at all

Kitten spends quite a bit of time talking to Master about everything and anything, to be honest kitten is now getting used to how His mind jumps about and most of the time she can follow His conversation, be it about the stock market or the weather, certain sexual things * and nope not saying what they are but kitten will say eeeeeeewwwwwww * and kitten values the time she spends with Him, lol she knows He is usually chatting online with others at the same time, this is what makes following His conversations so interesting !


Well Master asked some questions last night and kitten answered them as best she could, they were questions that were really hard to answer. After kitten had answered them she made a comment, and Master said something, something that made kitten think even more, He said ‘ We all make our own paths in life, and it is our right to search out our happiness ‘


He is right, it is kittens right to be happy, she deserves it as much as the next person, and while she knows being with Master will upset a few others, that is their problem, selfish kitten knows, but should she not take this chance of happiness so she can make others feel better ? Do they deserve to be happy more than kitten does ? And is their happiness really dependant on kitten not coming or on something else that kitten has no control over ?


Wow deep thought s for a morning, but its true, kitten does have as much right as anyone else at being happy and this life makes her happy, she knows there will be struggles, and she is not stupid enough to believe it will all be plain sailing, there will be life issues kitten has to face, kitten also knows she will have a few problems facing certain things, all of which she is sure she will cope with if she has Master by her side,


Guess the reason for kittens ramblings this morning is to say, We all deserve to be happy, other peoples feelings are not something we can really control, just as kitten has to do what is right for her then they have to look inside themselves and know what is right for them, be it M/s D/s or something more traditional, their happiness is something only they can determine.

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kitten found this online, it is one of the few times she hopes Master ‘gives’ her flowers !!! lol kitten is nothing if not hopeful