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Whose Needs ?

Posted on: March 20, 2009

Kitten sits here and wonders what to write about, at the moment all she can think of is the dull ache between her legs, an ache that has been getting worse as the time is getting closer to being with Master. Kitten is no ones fool, she knows that her life with Master will not be sex sex sex as that is not the M/s way regardless of what you have read or been told, if it was then all slaves would walk like John Wayne just getting off his horse and all Masters would need oxygen as lets face it, no one can have sex 24 hours a day 7 days a week !!


Back to the ache, well kitten has been talking with Master, pillows and hugs and kisses etc etc and as hard as kitten tries He will not change His mind * boy is He one stubborn Master at times * but last night He made a slip, lol He said He cannot wait to paddle kittens ass, well let kitten tell you, she melted ! she even said she would love a pillow, if only to sit on with her sore ass, and she knows that He is teasing with the pillows, now to work on the hugs and kisses.


When kitten thinks about being with Him she will admit to wanting Him, something she is a bit scared of as she knows a slave should desire her Master, what is the point of submitting if the one you submit to repulses you, and kitten does desire Him very much, and that is what scares her at times, is it wise to ache for your Master, does that not put more pressure on Him ? And at the end of the day it is not about kittens satisfaction, it is about Masters, so if kitten feels like this about Him now then will she be able to forget her needs to make sure His are met ?


Kitten hopes she will be able to serve Master well, she has no doubts at all there will be some moments of tension as at the moment kitten has only been online with Him, and having served a Master r/t she knows there is a vast difference, and at times she will admit to being stroppy and sullen, as well as mouthy, things she would never dared to be previously, so kitten wonders if she can really get back to being the slave she needs to be, Do you forget how to serve ? Does your focus become centred on you and not Master ? Having never been a me me me type person kitten finds having these thoughts, feelings and this ache is something she is not used to, and to be honest, she is not sure she likes it,  she wants to serve Master, she needs to be real time and she needs to be able to be kitten once more, Damn it, just said kitten was not a me me me type and the last line was about what she wanted, not what Master wanted.


God help kitten she has a feeling she is going to struggle if she is not with Him soon

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2 Responses to "Whose Needs ?"

Oh how i envy you kitten, so close to being with your Master. It is very obvious that you will be a wonderful slave to Him. 🙂

Thank you His precious pet for your comments, kitten hopes your faith in her is not ufounded, she needs to be with Master as at the moment she seems to be existing and not really living, if you have read this blog you will see there have been many ups and downs along the way, mainly with other slaves and that is something kitten is not looking forward to, she knows Master tells her it will be different when she is there, that others will have to accept or leave, and that is something kitten is worried about, she will not be the cause of that.
Everyone deserves to be happy, this is kittens happiness at stake and she just hopes she can get herself into the mindset she needs, there is such a difference between online and real time and kitten is the first to admit that Master gives her more freedom than kitten has ever known while she is online, hopefully in real time He will tighten the reigns and pull kitten back into line as she needs that desperatly

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